thanks mr. stevenson

"i regard you with an indifference closely bordering on aversion."

sunday - thich nhat hanh

everything inside and
around us wants to reflect
iteself in us. we don't have to go
anywhere to obtain the truth.
we only need to be still and
things will reveal themselves in
the still water of our heart.

rogue

today's a good day for staying home sick

for cuddles with kittens in a white oversized robe

for hammers and explitives and learning how to forget.

broken english

feel it, release it, things change.

sunday

i thought i needed a warm body. i need his.

the timing isn't right to be in love. proximity is everything.

i watched someone i love bury their partner of 49 years last week.

some warm body isn't going to cut it.

i've earned the right to be an asshole

i cannot wait to be a crass, avocado growing geriatric woman.

loqacious?

my daughters names will begin with L, like all the best things a Lady can be;
Lovely, Loyal, Lively, Lustful, Lighthearted.

talkin' (b)out

"i love you past the universe, into the galaxy of maleable clay and colour"

shiraz my heart beats in my chest
shiraz you beat in the rest

zero pickles

i must purge my life of all objects.
everything.

except books.

whmis?

on the clock,
women with withered voices call us heartless.
tired mothers and women without partners.

"unfortunately that isn't within my control"
"i'm sorry maam but your account has now been outsourced"

grandfather-types with bright blue mittens (mid summer) stand hunched
screaming and screaming and screaming.

script/sonnet

i can't say what to leave you with or what is best to say.

simply,
it is your touch that keeps me breathing, lungs filled with dust.
forever stagnant, unmoving, unshaken, untouched.

house sat - sunday

standing naked
in front of the window
eating bacon bits

paramour

it isn't always as advantageous as one might think
to have a face that strangers forget to look away from

depot

sometimes it feels good to be a 'spritely young thing' in the sea of sagging fortysomethings waiting at the bus stop.

heartsick and hell bound.

feverishly

it is exceedingly difficult, in the most fundamental way
to love something you can't keep.

petty called it

the wai(ai-ai)t IS the hardest part.

something blue

from now on,
keeping to fictional lovers.
to earth, wind, and water. to those who choose fight.
to silenced hearts, to other arts.
to birds without flight.

wednesday - thich nhat hanh

the practice of mindfulness
is the key to enlightenment.
when you drink a cup of water
and you are aware that you are
drink that cup of water deeply
with your whole being,
enlightenment is there. to be
enlightened is to be enlightened
about something. you can get
joy, peace, and happiness just
from drinking a cup of water.

(and touching everything i break)

still breaking everything i touch.

no going

change of scenery, of pace, of heart.
selflessness above all.